This is life, hold on tight
A pretty apartment in New York. Sigh take me back, I wanna go back.
Sometimes when life gets crappy, I try to look at the bright side and force myself to have a different outlook on things because HEYYY why be sad and miserable when there's a life full of possiblities just waiting for you when you choose to be happy :D ha. In contrast, these days, well usually in the day, I'll feel strong and happy but somehow when night time comes, it all just comes breaking free. Well I'm typing this in the morning. And how am I feeling? I'm feeling.....empty. I've been immersed in this ocean of emotions and feelings for the past few weeks and it's draining the life out of me to be honest. It sucks when you have to put on a false front and force yourself to look happy. Okay, you know what? This part sounds depressing and nonsensical and therefore I shall stop here. I've been very bipolar lately it's not even funny.
And so it was my babygurl's birthday yesterday! Hehe happy seventeenth birthday my dear Akeela! And if you're reading this, I want you to know that I'm so glad that I met you and that I love you. So freaking much!
I made a pit stop at Parkway in the morning yesterday after sending my sister to school at Marine Parade because I'm the best sister ever (ha ha ha) and I got my red velvet cupcakes from 12 Cupcakes, pretzels and I bought pretty notebooks too! To be honest, I felt crappy the whole day yesterday. Until a stranger actually wished me good afternoon. A small act of kindness goes a very long way, eh? Oh and there was a good-looking Victorian who alighted at the same stop as me. He he he. I reached home around 7 to do my prayers and I went out again at 8PM to meet Asyura for cup walker and we went to Akeela's house to surprise her. (In which I still can't get over her reaction hehe)
So was yesterday a good day? Yes and no. A lot of things are clouding up my mind and I'm just trying my best to stay happy and positive. Alas, it's getting burdensome and my patience is running thin. You know what? It is what it is. In retrospect, "constantly changing" is life's greatest oxymoron.
Okay so in the month of May, many things happened - my sister's 20th birthday, her graduation, Asyura's birthday, my parent's 21st anniversary, mid terms and marking day.
I love you guys so much muah muah (and Luqman and Maryam too)
In early June, I had my official O level fnn practical, it turned out quite well I suppose, even though I think there's still room for improvement. And I'm also a very happy happy girl because I managed to attend one of Mufti Menk's lecture!! It was truly beautiful. After years of watching it on YouTube. He's an amazing man, may god bless him. You guys should watch his videos and maybe watch him live too if you ever get the chance. You won't regret it, I promise.
My mid term results weren't up to my expectations. Well it could be because that it's a massive jump. My teachers said it's fine and we're doing well. I genuinely hope my batch will score well! Come on guys, we can do this! GO BIG OR GO HOME! On a brighter note, I got my first excellent conduct. Yes, my first. (And I don't understand why actually because I don't make trouble or anything in class lol oh well) HOLLER!
Semester one's been crazy and lovely. Semester two will be better, I can feel it in my bones.
My mom told me to stop reading until the end of my Os. Sigh. But I'll be putting all the books I wanna read in a box and I'll read them after my Os and have the loveliest time ever! As for now, my favourite book is The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. If you're thinking of reading a new book, you should read that! Or maybe Remember Me? by Sophie Kinsella, The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, and books by John Green, Nicholas Sparks and Haruki Murakami! :-) one day, when I have my own house, I'll make a life library just like Alaska Young in the book Looking For Alaska by John Green and read all of them before I die.
What's on my current wish list:
I have a theory, my theory is about moments, moments of impact. My theory is that these moments of impact, these flashes of high intensity that completely turn our lives upside down actually end up defining who we are. The thing is each one of us is the sum total of every moment that we’ve ever experienced with all the people we’ve ever known. And it’s these moments that become our history and change our lives forever.
-The Vow
Oh and I changed my lockscreen picture! It's always been some motivational quote but now it's something different! It's something....happy hehe. I mean just look at the man's face and how happy he is! Hehe.
Farewell, lovely people. On that note, I bid you good day. Stay happy as always.