A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor
Throwback: Harvard University
I often long for those days where I can chill, relax and unwind. But for now, I need to finish what I've started. I have picked the sec five route to go to poly and I have to jolly well do it right. It's a rough road, no doubt, but I have to keep on telling myself it's what's waiting at the end of the road that matters. Truth be told, I had a better work ethic last year when I was doing my N levels. I was more focused. Maybe that was how I got 12 points (for L1R4) But this year, it feels completely different. I have no idea why but lethargy's always getting the best of me and I will always find the need to procrastinate.
My thoughts are also utterly messed up. It's detrimental, I know. I'm trying to fight it, really. But frankly, it's quite hard to negotiate with the monsters in my head. It's like I could feel a deathly dragging sensation pulling my hope into oblivion every time I feel like doing something productive. I know that I have to get my act together, but I honestly just have no idea where to begin. I've been providing myself with hell lots of motivations. Well it's a spark, and I genuinely hope it's enough to keep me going.
How's life? Life's been a roller-coaster. There are happy days, and there also horrible days. But that's just life, I suppose. Whatever it is, I reckon that staying positive is key. You know what Greyson Chance said, "get rid of all the hesitations, it's time for you to seize the day!"
It's crazy to think how my secondary school life will end in a matter of months. I will definitely miss going to school with Syak and Akeela, securing tables at the canteen with my girls, complaining about the school rules and having a wonderful time with my class. After this year, cheering competition, cross country, Crestian's Got Talent, sneaking out of school during lunch breaks, dancing with my sec fives at the tower will be just a memory. I know I've said that I hate PRCS countless times but honestly, it had definitely moulded me into a better person. Here, I've felt the sweet taste of success, feelings of failure, distraught, embarrassment and many more. It's endless. Nevertheless, I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Btw I have a big news I've been dying to tell all of you. I've been dating someone for the past three months........ :") who? JACK HARRIES! Hehe. Okay I'm so lame. Love you Jackson muaaahhhhh. Well he's in London now but we Skype everyday! Here I've screenshot some for you guys.
Escapism - The tendency to seek distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, esp. by seeking entertainment or engaging in fantasy.
I guess my form of escapism is by reading, listening to music and by watching YouTube videos. This is very random but I just feel like giving my favourite authors, bands and YouTube vloggers a big big hug. They have really made a huge impact on my life. Like really. I really have no idea how to express my gratitude. Those things are like practically my cure to anything and everything. They can really make me happy and I hope they know that. In short, they have saved my life. Recently, I have been writing a lot too. Well, it isn't that good but I feel a sense of serenity whenever I write. Truth is, most of the time, I have a myriad of thoughts bouncing around in my head. But when I read, write, listen to music and watch my favourite YouTube channels, the world just gets kinda quiet. It's just therapeutic, you know?
My twenties will be full of travelling, reading, writing and learning, I hope. I really hope I get to achieve my aspirations. I'd like to wander and capture pictures from different corners of the world and basically just get lost in it's beauty. I can't wait to ride in a plane again to explore the world. Looking at the sky around me, floating with the clouds and drowning myself with overwhelming feelings of pure and utter happiness. It's magical, I reckon.
Alas, O levels, diplomas/A levels, degree first.
It's crazy to think how my secondary school life will end in a matter of months. I will definitely miss going to school with Syak and Akeela, securing tables at the canteen with my girls, complaining about the school rules and having a wonderful time with my class. After this year, cheering competition, cross country, Crestian's Got Talent, sneaking out of school during lunch breaks, dancing with my sec fives at the tower will be just a memory. I know I've said that I hate PRCS countless times but honestly, it had definitely moulded me into a better person. Here, I've felt the sweet taste of success, feelings of failure, distraught, embarrassment and many more. It's endless. Nevertheless, I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Btw I have a big news I've been dying to tell all of you. I've been dating someone for the past three months........ :") who? JACK HARRIES! Hehe. Okay I'm so lame. Love you Jackson muaaahhhhh. Well he's in London now but we Skype everyday! Here I've screenshot some for you guys.
Escapism - The tendency to seek distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, esp. by seeking entertainment or engaging in fantasy.
I guess my form of escapism is by reading, listening to music and by watching YouTube videos. This is very random but I just feel like giving my favourite authors, bands and YouTube vloggers a big big hug. They have really made a huge impact on my life. Like really. I really have no idea how to express my gratitude. Those things are like practically my cure to anything and everything. They can really make me happy and I hope they know that. In short, they have saved my life. Recently, I have been writing a lot too. Well, it isn't that good but I feel a sense of serenity whenever I write. Truth is, most of the time, I have a myriad of thoughts bouncing around in my head. But when I read, write, listen to music and watch my favourite YouTube channels, the world just gets kinda quiet. It's just therapeutic, you know?
Alas, O levels, diplomas/A levels, degree first.
