It scares me how I'm not going to study literature and other humanities and language-related subjects anymore. The subjects that I truly love. I love math and physics too but nothing compares to my love for the humanities subjects. 

It's pretty evident too from my results that I'm more of a humanities person rather than a math-science person. The fact that I got a B3 for combined humanities and pure literature still perplexes me to no ends because I didn't finish up every single paper. I didn't even do my history sourced-based questions as I had no time. 

In a few more months, I'll be travelling by bus to school. Which is rather weird because I've always walked to school as it has always been a stone's throw away from my house. 

In a few more months, I'll meet new people and foster new friendships. The idea of being seperated with my friends fills me in with such fear. But then again, look at us now. I honestly just wish everything can go back to the way it was where we were all so happy with each other but sadly now everything's just a stark contrast to whatever I've envisaged. 

In a few more months, I'll not be studying any language and humanities-related subject anymore. Did I made the right choice of going into a polytechnic and taking a business-engineering course instead of getting into Millenia Institute to do and pursue the subjects that I deep down love? I know going into Millenia Institute will pose a great challenge to myself due to it's piling stress, but however, it seems more logical that I’ll do better in it rather than the business-engineering. However, gut feeling's telling me that I did the right thing. Only time will tell. 

To sum it all up, I am growing up and I am a step closer to the real world and also to independence. Which means, I have to get out of my comfort zone. I am a big girl now.